To say no when you want to say yes,
because that is what's best,
in the long run.
socked a punch
in my middle.
I was now present.
Flesh and bones.
She cured my indifference, then he.
A taste for life.
So I sank deeper, tried harder, loved stronger in order to color the white with your hue.
I was determined to bend and weld life, love, my body, my mind into the very shape I had always envisioned.
I was brimming, no longer sinning, my moon had returned.